Like you know I’m here to stay
I gotta shake it off…
…Just like the Calgon commercial life
I really gotta get up outta here
And go somewhere
I gotta shake it off.
IANNE :D hey thar.
abby.
Jul 19
Jun 25
Indie films get me through the times I need to cry D:
Tonight is one of those nights that I truly need to myself. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. It’s just one of those things when you hold in too many of the stupid, little things and they eventually build up inside. Days like these pass by when you have absolutely nothing to do but to just sit there and over-analyze every aspect of your life. Suddenly it just hits you. Tears start streaming down your cheek, everything surrounding you turns cloudy, and desperation for help strikes you. It’s like, I don’t want to die, but I want to know how it’s like just so I appreciate life a little more… Just so I can cherish the people in my life instead of letting each day go by without telling every single person how I feel. See, that’s another thing. Telling people how I feel. It’s all in my mind, fighting to break out, but the words never seem to come out. Whenever I give a piece of my mind, it’s just another thing I’m giving away. Once I give out a piece of me, even if it’s just a thought that was lost somewhere in my mind, it seems like it all gets thrown away. No matter how close anyone is to me, I have the biggest trust issues. How am I so sure that anyone will be there? Word is so cheap and promises always seem like they’re meant to be broken…
Jun 14
“ There’s no need to complicate, our time is short. This is our fate, I’m yours ♥
— Mraz
Jun 02
Cloud Nine?
Do you really get butterflies when you and a “significant other” kiss? I never understood the concept of feeling like being on cloud nine, feeling like the rest of the world doesn’t exist, the feeling of being one. I don’t get it. It’s always so cute to see it in the movies, seeing them makes it seem like nothing around them exists. But in reality? I really don’t see it.
May 27
[Flash 9 is required to listen to audio.]
“I miss the sound of your voice
And I miss the rush of your skin
And I miss the still of the silence”
May 25
I’m happy where we are.
So it’s proven right here, being single now has made me the happiest person that I’ve been in such a long time. It’s just amazing to know that I fell for a guy because I felt that it was right, not because I felt like I needed a new once after breaking up with an ex. But where we are right now, and how we stand, I wish this moment just froze and stayed the way it was. What makes it even more amazing is how we’re not official. The way how we don’t have to have the title of “boyfriend/girlfriend” and how we have dont live up to the whole cliche thing of being “asked out,” having some number to make things official, and saying “oh we’ve been going out for 3 weeks and 2 days.” It’s cute how you still get jealous when a guy would try talking to me, and i’ve basically fallen for all the stupid small things that you do. How your hand always finds a way to cling onto mine, the way you hold me when you try to pull me back, how you kiss my forehead when today was the last time I’d be seeing you around, and how we can’t simply let go of eachother. Every little thing that’s been happening makes me slowly fall more and more for you… ♥ But kid, I know we’ve only known eachother this year, but I’m proud of you. You’ve made it through this long twelve year chapter. It’s just the beginning of this lifelong story of your life, and I truely hope the best for you. Even though I know you can’t read this, you’ll make it it, and your seriously amazing(:
May 18
Time will actually tell, and patience is seriously key.
I’ll come out to admit, after seeing you once a month for a while, whenever I knew club day was coming up, I was excited just to get a hey out of you. Even just a month ago we just knew eachother on a “Hey, whats up?” basis with someone messing around but nothing to take into consideration. Knowing that we’d be on the same field trip, I got butterflies, hoping that somehow we’d slowly interact. Yes, I know how silly this all sounds, but it’s how I am. Something about him laying his head on my shoulder brought me to a sudden realization that I may actually just like this kid. For days I’ve been trying to see if what I felt was true, but no matter what, I just kept thinking about you. All it took was one simple add on Facebook. My only expectation was just another friend more than I had before. Somehow it seemed to all change from there. Ten minute conversations led to hours, than phone calls, to actually awknologing eachothers presence at school. The first day I met you, it was through some stupid election for club president. I just wish all this happened earlier so I could actually do something about it. Needless to say, I’m glad I actually did something about it..
May 16
…fail. i got too excited easily.
I’m horrifically mortified of thunder and lightning.
On a rare night, I might find it somewhat relaxing, but once the sun comes down, is the moment I’ll start going insane. My Directv looses signal, and it’s nothing but me, a lamp, and me hiding the covers. I know it sounds childish, but it’s seriously the scariest shiz. The thunder shakes the entire house, and I can feel every movement that’s not supposed to happen. And when you hear the sudden shriek of lightning forming, knowing in five seconds, it’s suddenly going to strike right outside my window, lighting the entire sky as if the sun was actually out. So I can basically say that my blanket and pillow are my bestfriends. Damn, I hate Florida so much.
“ If I see you next to never, how can we say forever? Wherever you go, whatever you do, I will be right here waiting for you.
— Richard Marx
